Thursday, November 22, 2007
and so, yesterday was the csc-kason badminton tournament. everyone, even coach, said that we played well. but why can't i find the game well played like how the others think? because of this, i didn't want to go for training today. it's stupid and silly, but after last night, i didn't feel like playing anymore. i don't even look forward to cheers. i really don't want to think about last night's match anymore, the thoughts are like killing me. oh well, i hope i'll get over it soon.. congrats to jingxia who won last night's match and today's match. all the best for tomorrow's match! and to the others (huda, stella, abigail and sarah), it's okay that you all lost. you all played well. and thanks to all those who tried to cheer me up.

sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there, because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.